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PAUL HAMILL
DREAM
PLOTS
Dream
plots progress, but slowly. Or do they only seem to
because
I torture fragments at waking’s border,
dream-remembered
and real
Slipping
past arm in arm? I waken desperate, convinced
that
a great implication has escaped, again.
If
that is mere dream,
It
is the last to yield to morning’s census of facts, nagging
into
the light like news that an urgent message
was
sent but never arrived.
If
even one dream unfolded over many dreamings —
a new
coherence
— What might it not mean? Are not my dreams
more
mine than the days I live out?
Night
after night for a week, then not for months, Nazis
chase
me through vineyards, firing. I despair at the waste
of
my dying until my thrashing
Wakes
me. Other nights I lope along a high ridge
to
a camp where someone waits. I fill with expectation
and
a deep peace but as I descend
The
place fades. Some nights, Ben Franklin is having his way
with
a plump maid in Paris, urbanely wheedling her
out
of her linen, coaxing so wittily
It
is as if he has two lusts that seduce each other. And sometimes,
after
I have feasted, Fat and Thin wander a desert
under
empty speech balloons.
They
near some verge, these running dreams: I feel it.
If
I could dodge the Lugers for just a few more sleeps
my
betrayer would be revealed.
Lately
the cabin glows in sunset, a shadow steps
to
the doorway. Old Ben is so close to his prize
I
wake up laughing. If only
I
could shunt to their alternate track, accelerate
to
their destinations! But always they break off,
start
over like obsessions,
Clog
with the randomness of the day until panic
returns.
Only hunger and fullness, those pilgrims lost
in
their own desert, never change.
THE
SIMPLE FAITHFUL
I
hate the simple faithful
They
tempt the other kinds.
Children
have no choice
But
to be simple believers:
In
my heart I forgive them
But
not the elders who say
/A
priest would never corrupt…/
/The
President would not lie…/
/Don’t
question, the experts know…/
/We
see the mayor at church…./
I
want all grownups to swallow
A
little pill of evil
Feel
it roil their gut
Let
its poison rise
Like
jaundice to their eyes.
Let
them learn to stand
Downwind
from loyalty
To
smell which words are false,
Credit
the child who tells
Of
a wrong touching, lay
Last
year’s Official Lie
Alongside
this year’s slogan
To
take the new word’s measure.
That
pill will make an ulcer
That
pulses when they eat
Truth
from common table;
The
taste of simple faith,
So
tempting, will be sour.
ACADEMIC
INTRODUCTION TO PINK
Baby
sleepers, doll parades, Barbie’s favorite blouse,
the
mother of the bride’s plump acreage in silk: all pink.
A
cabal like manners, but more about sex, forbids us to see
that
pink, the color of the trembling edge,
is
both the natural flag of revolutions
/the
dust cloud in the dawn the ululating throats /
/the
tear filled eyes the urgency that waits for no excuse/
and
dawnlight of intimate invasions,
blushes,
giggling come-ons, carnival nightglow.
Fruit
tree buds, cherries just swelling, apples streaked
as
redness floods them, purple plums before they darken:
Vintages
are welcome but the excitement
of
coming attractions? Pink.
So
too the flesh of greeting, smile or snarl,
And
ears and noses bright in cold open air.
So
the skin of the sole that meets the honest earth,
And
also the open palm saying peace help trust.
House
windows on cold nights cast hearthglow,
And
bodies in that warmth find the sweet erectness
of
nipples, men’s and women’s, the flush of arousal,
of
kisses, of lips beaded with light sweat panting
or
smiling in the sleep of repletion.
Death
is white but life is pink: serious inner-organ purples,
airy
pink in the lungs, the brain’s gray-pink,
the
pinkish birth waters, the prick-head and vulva.
Careful
ladies have camouflaged the anarchic swell
and
intimate nuance of pink: it is in purdah.
They
know by their own flesh reasons
for
swaddling in the lace of sentiment,
in
baby-girl confections. Maybe wisely,
veiling
to preserve, for innocence
to
survive letdowns, girlish and even sexy
beneath
chores: Persephone still soft
in
an underworld of monotony.
A
tactic out of Poe, hiding secrets
in
plain sight, using our blindness
to
the familiar.
What
do the matrons fear?
Perhaps
the pinkness of Tongue, which tastes
whatever
comes to it without shame,
rolls
and curls like an undisciplined child,
gives
away tactless feelings like boredom,
teases,
pleases in passing or speaks
a
lifetime of hurt in seconds. Tongue
is
the worm within the breath,
the
tempter-seducer no one ever called
pretty
or handsome, the first searcher
following
birth, the snake at the dry hole
of
the last fever. Fumbler for names
and
the right saying of names, herald-greeter
and
go-between, Tongue is never
the
final home of a word or a droplet.
Nunneried!
That urgent body-memory color,
that
hotter-than-fashion, coin-of-intimate-realms
off-color!
Masked in the banal until I showed you. .
Pink!
Paul
Hamill was named poet laureate of Tompkins County, N.Y.,
in 2007. He is director of academic funding and sponsored programs
at Ithaca College.
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