From her upcoming book of L.A. noir …

    When I turned fourteen, my mother’s sister took me to lunch and said:   soon you’ll have breasts. They’ll mushroom on your smooth chest like land mines.   A boy will show up, a schoolmate, or the gardener’s son. Pole-cat around you. All brown-eyed persistence.   He’ll be everything your parents hate, a smart aleck, a drop out, a street racer on the midnight prowl.   Even your best friend will call him a loser. But this boy will steal your reason, have you   writing his name inside a scarlet heart, entwined with misplaced passion and a bungled first kiss.   He’ll bivouac beneath your window, sweet-talk you until you sneak out into his waiting complications.   Go ahead, tempt him with your new-found glamour. Tumble into the backseat of his Ford at the top of Mulholland,   flushed with stardust, his mouth in a death-clamp on your nipple, his worshipful fingers scatting sacraments on your clit.   Soon he will deceive you with your younger sister, the girl who once loved you most in the world.   _________________________________________________   when your mother convinces you to take in your homeless younger sister…   She will date your boyfriend. She’ll do it better than you ever did. She’ll have nothing but time. He’ll start showing up when you leave, train her to make him the perfect BLT, (crusts off, avocado on the side), encourage his cheating heart, suck his dick so good he’ll think he’s died and gone to Jesus.   Your sister will borrow your clothes, and look better in them than you ever did. Someone will see her with your boyfriend at the Grove, agonize for days before deciding not to tell you. Meanwhile he’ll buy her that fedora you admired in Nordstrom’s window, the last one in your size.   When you complain, your mother will tell you it’s about time you learned to share.   While you’re at work, your sister will tend your garden, weed the daisies, coax your gardenias into bloom. No matter how many times you remind her, she will one day forget to lock the gate; your cat and your lawn chairs will disappear.   Your mother will say it serves you right.   Your sister will move into your boyfriend’s big house in Laurel Canyon. He will ignore her, and she will make a half-hearted suicide attempt; you’ll rescue her once again.   Your mother will wash her hands of the pair of you, then get cancer and die.   Smell the white gardenias in the yard. Cherish their heady perfume. Float them in a crystal bowl. Forgive your sister as she has forgiven you.   _____________________________________   the cool wind comes through me  like Jamaica for T.M.   outside, it’s winter. your life calls.   your wife calls.   you want to sail away.   turn back!   travel instead my aestival coastline, throat, collarbone, my perfect breasts sloped like berms in December.   brave the Bermuda Triangle of my hips and my belly,   the delectable delta between my thighs;   plunder those places your wife won’t let you go.   desire rules our ocean. your body echoes my perfume.   if she loved you as I do, you wouldn’t be here.   I wouldn’t taste like you.   ______________________________________________   FREEWAY SEX   There’s a 19 car pile up on Vasquez Rocks. You’re late. This would be a good excuse.   I want to grind that thought out like your cigarette. Drive right over it.   You were dead to me the first time I found motel matches in your pocket.   You brought me offramp roses. Your fingers smelled like someone else.   When the traffic doesn’t move when I’m lost again in Pasadena and my pussy dampens, I think of fellating you on the freeway to pass the time.   Is that what you’re thinking of?   From the 5 to the 2 to the 134. Take the Pearblossom Highway. Make a smooth transition.   Tell me exactly how it’s going down and I’ll write that poem.   The one where you’re supposed to be on time, and I’m supposed to care.  

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Alexis Rhone Fancher is the author of “How I Lost My Virginity To Michael Cohen and Other Heart Stab Poems,” (Sybaritic Press, 2014.) Find her poems in Rattle, The MacGuffin, Slipstream, H_NGM_N, and elsewhere. Her photographs have been published worldwide. Since 2013 she’s been nominated for three Pushcart Prizes and a Best of The Net award. She is poetry editor of Cultural Weekly.

Website:  www.alexisrhonefancher.com

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